Some Things You Just Can't Tell People

You might know somebody like me.  Or maybe it's you.  I tend to have no filter when speaking with people.
You would think that there should be some on/off switch, but my filter has no limit.

My facial expressions-same idea.  I give it all away in my face. 
In college, I was nicknamed "blunt" for a short while until I realized that could go in a bad direction.  So for sorority life, I became "Frank." I loved the name, but wow, what did I say to those people to earn such a name?  ANYTHING and EVERYTHING!

What is appropriate to say to a co-worker during a meeting?
What is appropriate to say to a good looking and smart co-worker?
When is it appropriate to tell your best friend that I need some attention?
Is it appropriate that I respond "I would like another child, but my husband and I are going through some issues; issues not with conceiving but actually with sleeping with each other," when somebody asks if I only want one child?
When is it appropriate to disclose all the hurt in your life?
When is it appropriate to admit that love does not exist?

So, I have to ask, when is it the time that I realize there are just some things you cannot tell people no matter how much it hurts you, makes you feel relieved, gets you high, makes you more livid, makes you selfishly happy or just makes you feel?

When to filter or not to filter, that is the question?

When are you too old?

Last month I went away with my best friend, her sister and her best friend.  We are clearly all over the ripe age of 30 and annually spend an overnight trip out with girls only.  So we leave behind our kids, our husbands/boyfriends and our "real" lives. 
This year we headed to Atlantic City and stayed at the Borgata.  The girls were going to see David Guetta and I was going for the yummy dinner and drinks and gambling, and maybe mingling with hot rich men? Okay, so all of that really did not happen because we had a kink in the road.  A boyfriend showed up!!!
How dare him come to AC to see David Guetta in the Borgata????  And this was the beginning of the drama filled evening that I missed half of because I met up with an old family friend, aka, hot older man, not rich, and married.  Oh he was there was his wifey.  But we enjoyed ourselves.

Anywho, once we ran into the boyfriend, we immediately ran up to the room to disclose the fact to the girlfriend and can you imagine, she really didn't seem too surprised.  Oh I should I tell you that this relationship is on and off again and HE is a creep and SHE is beautiful, intelligent and knows how to have a good time.  Well, this was already after we ate at Wolfgang's and drank many yummy drinks plus champagne.  A recipe for danger!!!

We then went downstairs to go our separate ways.  They waited on line to get into their "concert," and I left to go gamble and meet up with the old friend.  Funny it is that I am usually the party pooper and want to go in by 12AM.  But drinks really help.  And learning how to drink to get drunk and then maintain that slight drunkenness is KEY to a good night for me.  But this time, I actually arrived back to the room after the girls returned.  How was that????

Well I learned that Drama unfolded into the night.  Why is it that men, horrible men, always create an environment that was meant to be fun and exciting into a hot mess of a night?  Unlike them, I had a great night.  The next morning however was a little tough on my body.

Now, I love the Borgata; I love their spa and pool; I love the pretty people; and I love the vibe.  So I decided, early in the morning, to head to the hot tub and pool.  Wow, with my head pounding and my walk a stagger at best I ended up in the hot tub.  Will the hot tub remove all theses toxins?  No, so I jumped into the pool hoping it would revive my Cooler Cleansed body.  Not so much.  I needed food!!!!!  Finally the girls awoke and I met them to eat.  Can we say, SHE had a blackout from the night before but the stories I heard kept me laughing.  The girls, besides her, did get to enjoy 45 minutes of David Guetta but would have liked to go into the morning fist pumping.  Overall, a successful evening, for me!

But when is it time to ask when are you too old to party like a 21 year old?

Big Brother 13 Casting

About 6 years ago I left a bridal shower early so I can attend the Big Brother 6 open casting call. In preparation, I took some lovely snapshots of myself and picked out a great outfit to show off my assets. Well something worked because I was called back for the semi finals. I was a newlywed and had a great backstory and wasn't too bad on the eyes to boot. But I never did get that call back for the finals in LA.
Here we are in 2011 and it's Big Brother 13 and I am ready again. I've got the story, the drive, and yeah even at 36, the looks. So I headed out this morning, after 3 wardrobe changes,to the City. I brought my 12 page application, 2 snapshots that really did me no justice and a bag full of crap that I thought I would need to keep me occupied. However I found myself waiting outside on line for 2 hours on this crappy spring day in the City. Thank God for my pink boots, my manly black gloves, my Victoria Secret hat and some warmth found in conversation and a huddle.
Finally inside and it was my turn to show them who I was. If any of you might know or remember, I did a comedic monologue called "2 minutes" when I competed in Miss Staten Island, and that's exactly what I felt here. I had no more than 2 minutes to show them me! And I believe that in 2 minutes you can find out a great deal about a person and make a judgement call. And I was hoping that they would love me or love to hate me in those 2 minutes.
They first asked my name and where I was from and with that they said "you don't talk like your from Staten Island.". I said that's because I went upstate to college and have a weird mixture of accents but Staten Island will prevail. Next question " what differentiates you from others?". My DNA? No really, I tend to lead others without the authoritarian attitude. Also I change my ways to fit into the situation and I am like a dimmer light switch where I can gradually change my mood and actions when necessary. With that the casting director replied while clapping "clap on clap off." Sure truth be told I do turn that fast. Last they checked out my tattoos. "Tell me the significance behind them?". And so I did.
I think it went well and I'm afraid to see what happens next but I am ready to expect the unexpected!

Why is it so Difficult?

Since my last blog, I have completed the Cooler Cleanse; haven't drank much coffee, and repeatedly have asked myself why is it so difficult?  So today, I believe is a ranting day and please join me!

Why is it so difficult:
To answer a simple question without answering the question. Example: Question-What are you doing on Sunday? Answer-Well, Saturday, I have to bring my child to karate, then she'll come home and eat lunch and rest, after that she needs to do some reading, and then she is going to a play and sleeping out but Sunday needs to be home by church time.

I ask-where was the real answer?

Why is it so difficult:
To remember both sneakers for the gym?  I try to get my workout done during my lunch.  I bring in my clothes, my socks, my Blackberry because I am on lunch, and one sneaker so I decide that I am still going to work out.  I never give up.  And there I am on the track running with my Coach sequined flats. 

That is, until after 8 laps one shoe decides to fly off my foot in the air.

Why is it so difficult:
To multitask? Question-Can you babysit next week?  Answer-No, I have to go to the bank.
REALLY???????????  One can't babysit a well behaved boy AND go to the bank?  Is she going to rob it?

Why is it so difficult:
To visit your mom. 
Another no brainer.

Why is it so difficult:
To JUST DO IT.

I can go on with this, and I am sure you can too.  So leave me a comment with your "Why is it so Difficult?"

Fourth and Final Day of Cooler Cleanse

Before I get to the review of Cooler Cleanse, I want to tell you a little about my Tuesday and Wednesday.  On Tuesday, I decided to return to the gym to keep my stamina up!  The babysitting area was not open as of yet, but in my gym there are couches on one level of the gym where children can sit while their parent is exercising.  I placed my lil man on the couch and gave him a snack, very healthy chocolate, and told him that I am going over to the bikes. I said "If you need anything, just wave your hand and call mommy, and I will come."  Not but 2 minutes later, I see my cutie waving him arm and saying "mommy, I need you, mommy."  So I get off the bike and say to him "what do you need?"  "Mommy, I need you because I love you."  Now I am thinking, isn't he adorable but I have to acknowledge this need and get back on that bike.  All I wanted was 10 minutes so that he could go to the kids room. So I rephrase and tell him "if you have an emergency and a very important problem, wave your hand and call mommy."  One minute later..."mommy I have an emergency, there are these boys sitting next to me and I don't know them. Mommy, I don't know the boys."  Ugh, this is not working, I think.  So I get off the bike and talk him into going into the kid room.
I got to work out 20 minutes on the treadmill but my mind was shot.  This was not my ideal work out.  I did have bigger plans.
Wednesday arrives and it is time for my lil man to go to my sister's house.  Maybe many of you can relate.  If you have a sister who is laid back, thinks about herself and plays to the beat of her own drum.  Yet she is OCD and should be able to handle a three and half year old who demands nothing more than a TV, snacks and food, and water.  She has an 8 year daughter who is in 3rd grade, so she has had experience with a kid before.  My lil one is very easy going.  He loves to watch TV and loves to play superhero.  Let's get back to Wednesday, her usual babysitting day.  I was judging a science fair at an elementary school and was very busy throughout the day however called her after lunch three separate times.  These were her responses: "I have to call you back in a little while; I have to call you back in 10 minutes; and I have to call you back in 1 minute."  By the time she decided to call me back, I was already by her house and it was more than 2 hours later.  I had heard that my lil one was sick but didn't hear it straight from my sister's mouth until that phone call.  Now, I ask, why didn't she call me earlier because when I got to her house, my poor baby looked so weak.  But this is not unusual behavior for my sister so I just deal with it.  Is this normal?

So here is the review of the Cooler Cleanse:
First day was okay with the Almond Milk being the drink I liked least.  I also had a hard time finishing all six drinks because I was full.
Second day, I really had to push the Carrot and Brazil Nut down my throat.  And the Grapefruit and Mint was refreshing during a workout but I am not a fan of grapefruit.  The Carrot was okay when it was very cold, but once it was room temperature it needed apple or something to sweeten it up.  And the Brazil Nut was better than the Almond but again once it was a little warm, I had to force it down.  And the second day overall was the hardest day for me.  I had a headache and was tired. I was very cold and felt like I was going to pass out at one point.  But the good part of the day, and this didn't happen the first time I had tried it, was when my digestive system started kicking in.  I was over-joyed that this happened because I do not go to teh bathroom regularly and this cleanse really did kick start my organs!!!
The third day was also a good day. I felt full and had all six drinks with the pineapple and ginger being my favorite.  The fourth and final day was a piece of cake and I felt like I could do his cleanse every day for the rest of my life but then I realized I will need to chew something eventually!  Thank you watermelon and lime for getting me in the spring mode.
So overall my favorites were pineapple and ginger and watermelon and lime and my least favorites were carrot and almond milk.  I didn't order any coconut water, which I disliked my first go around, and the spicy lemonade but next time I will add the lemonade!  And just a note about the essential green and red: I am not the biggest fan but anything cold is good and because I knew that it was good for my body it was good for me to consume.  And the final note is that I lost 2 pounds.  I did expect to loose a little more but 2 pounds and a healthy digestive system is great!  Now you ask, am I glowing?  Well, you can ask my friend "Ariel" about that.