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Friday, March 8, 2013

H8 2 W8 when waiting will not make...

Ironic how this blog post has been in draft form for a while now.  How dare I not complete this thought and make it wait for me to come together!

It seems that we are always waiting for something...something to happen, something to arrive; something to go away; And for someone...someone to appear, someone to come along, someone to do their job so I can complete my job,  someone to show us something.  You get the point, right?
So on my way to work, driving up the hill, I saw a car coming towards me, driving down the hill, with the vanity license plate H8 2 W8 and eureka...don't we all???

Well, I do.  I do hate waiting when there is no outcome in sight.  I hate waiting for something that I just might be able to make happen by taking the bull by its horns.   Yet I hate waiting in line, however knowing that something will come out of it, like purchasing food, a toy, or maybe something special for me lessens the sting a little. 

Waiting for someone who is late-never makes me a happy camper.  Waiting to hear for results- nerve raking.  Waiting for an opportunity-instead of making an opportunity-stupidity.   Waiting for someone to come into my life and make everything better-NOOOO! Through Hurricane Sandy’s refocus (yes I have no other word for it-well I do-BITCH), I called everything a waiting came.  But I never just waited.  I called, I showed up, I posted, over and over and over again until I got what I needed.  Needless to say, I am still waiting, but not by simply sitting there.  I am an active waiter I will say. 

Yes, an active waiter, like an active rest (oxymoron) when working out.

But let’s get back to opportunity and people in your life.  Out of dreams come opportunity.  I have many dreams, as I am sure, and hope, that you do.  Dream big, no, dream bigger, is my stance.  This makes me believe that my opportunities, all opportunities, seem  reachable.  They are reachable.  I never find myself waiting for an opportunity to come along.  I search them out. I apply for them.  I get passed up.  I go after it again and again and again.  The fact that I get passed up doesn’t kick me to the ground.  Yes, sure it hurts and frustrates me.  But hopefully it gives me a better understanding of how to achieve it the next time around.  Or if not this opportunity, another opportunity that fits me. 

And I would hope for every opportunity I seek out that there is someone behind me:  To support me; pick up my slack; be happy for me, even join me.  And when I say join me, I am not setting my ideologies on others, no I express them but I don't expect anyone or everyone to accept them; I would just like for someone to see opportunities for what they are.  I would hope that someone would not belittle my dreams and my drive for opportunity. 

I will hope and dream,  provide and accept opportunities, but will not wait for something or someone that will not be... 

Monday, March 4, 2013

Mulling over first Monday in March

It's usually after a successful weekend which brings a Monday full of thoughts.  I refuse, however, to boggle my mind.  I said in my New Years post that I will not question, I will have fun, enjoy those around me, and will not stress, so I will just roll with it and here I am...rolling. 

Can you imagine it's March? I did need to look at my list of things to do this year just to ensure that I was aligned with what I had stated. 

So let's say I am on track ...

I have some kind of normalcy back post Sandy and post a crappy year where I have found myself moving, but not obsessing.  Have tried to make two meals a week and one new one for little man to try.  Try, not necessarily like, but try... And I have tried to become more aware of what and how much I am eating.  So I have tried to clarify my food habits and it seems that I am on track.

I signed up for a writing course and I look forward to taking that to fruition. I also have been able to read a little bit more and take some time to watch some movies. 

And my experiences with little man require a lot of energy and a lot of communication.  I have tried to do what I planned with him yet some days we get derailed but this little man is one creative and loving child.

 I am so happy he chose me as his mom.
And I am so happy to meet the challenges that come at me, making me who I am.